The thing about grief is:

It gets really boring.
And it attaches itself to people you once loved.
It's hard to let go of because it's all i have left of you.


The other thing is that it fades. Everyone always said "give it time, it is early days." and i could NEVER imagine that the feelings would go away. I forgot who i was for awhile there. I did not feel like me, that's for sure. I felt like a shadowy, sleepy, cynical, bitter mess.

i feel shiny again. Finally.


xxxxx